oh man... I hate being me... like I always think I have these problems and no one ever believes me. now I think I'm bipolar and no one believes me [of course] not even my friends... they just think its PMS but I know its not, its different, like my emotions have been changing a lot in one day and its been going on for a couple of months now. like a lot of the times on the bus or at school or at home I'm fine but then all of the sudden I get so mad that feel I have to punch out the window or yell at somebody and I try to hide my emotions a lot at school but I don't think it works because my friends are starting to notice but they think its really me. like my anger and sadness are getting out of control. and they start talking about me and that makes my anger worse. yesterday on the bus I was all sad and I didn't know why and I really didnt want to be bothered but two of my friends [vicky and KC] noticed it and started talking to me and I dont know why but I was getting really annoyed by it then the day before I was mad and I actually hit one of my friends and it makes me think that I'm a bad person but i hope I'm not cuz I really cant control it. this happens more than daily tho. in one day I can go from sad to mad to happy back and forth through out the day. I hate it. my friends probably think I'm psycho. cuz i always think there talking about me and they probably are but ugh! and I'm always getting annoyed too. like lately my friends have been getting on my nerves but they don't really do anything to make me feel that way all they do is say hi and try to make me feel better if they can tell that I'm sad but it just gets me annoyed... I hope they keep talking to me though cuz I've noticed that they don't talk to me as much as they used too... I guess I'm not as good at hiding my emotions as I thought I was, huh?